The Value of Remembering to Pause Between Stimulus and Response

Every day unpleasant and unwanted things happen, some small and some big. Victor Frankl, noted author and psychologist, wrote:
"Between stimulus and response lies a space. 
In that space lies our freedom and power to choose a response. 
In our response lies our growth and our happiness."  

One of the primary reasons for a regular meditation, or other contemplative, practice is that is makes us more likely to remember to be mindful when things don't go the way we want them to. Often it's little things: hitting a stop light when running behind, an issue with technology, the day not going the way you planned, etc. And then the bigger things like a leaky toilet, someone being mean to you, ruminating about a relationship, worry about the security of your job, etc.   All of these situations can result in our being more irritable or short-tempered at work or at home.

When we remember to pause, it creates enough space for us to remember that we have choices other than the initial reaction. It's like your agitation muddies the waters, and the pause enables you to see more clearly.

One of the more gratifying things about teaching mindfulness is to see how it changes people's lives. Once or twice a year I ask the people at the Monday night sitting at our Center to share examples of when an unpleasant situation arose and they remembered to pause. Here are several of their stories. 

Situation: I was feeling frustrated with my life and realized that I was getting stuck in a cycle of ruminating.
Response: I stopped and  took a breath...Then I decided to focus on some of the positive things about my life. 

Situation: I was away for a mini-vacation and was frustrated when things weren't going the way I had envisioned.  
Response: I realized that I was getting more negative. So I paused and asked myself what's really important here. I immediately thought rest and relaxation, and there are so many ways to get R & R at the ocean!

Situation: I had made dinner and suddenly smelled something burning. The dinner was ruined. The old stories began immediately: what an idiot, how could you do this? 
Response: I paused and took a few breaths. Calmer now, I realized I could make something else quickly. Not the delicious meal I had planned, but nutritious, and enough.

Situation: I have a troubling relationship with a friend, and it's easy to fall into rumination about that person and all their issues.
Response: One day I decided to simply take a step back and go into witnessing mode, that is, observing myself ruminating like I was watching a play. My mood lightened noticeably.

 Situation: We had just started meditating and suddenly some people outside started talking loudly and were playing music on a boom box.
Response: Initially I was irritated, but when I paused to consider it, I realized that while my mind didn't like the noise, my body didn't mind. With this change in attitude, I noticed the birds and then the noise was no longer a bother. 

Situation: During the meditation I started having a fair amount of back pain and all of my attention was trying to move to get rid of it. Not working.
Response: I was doing a body scan meditation, so I moved my attention to my legs and intentionally brought more curiosity to the sensations in my legs. I then continued the body scan. The next time I got to my back, the pain was gone! [Many people have told similar stories.]

 Situation: I was looking forward to spending the morning on a new project that I was excited about. However, at the doctor's office, I was told it would be awhile as they were backed up.
Response: I was irritated by the wait. So I decided to meditate with my eyes open. After a few minutes, I suddenly had all these incredible ideas about the project.

There are several amazing things about these stories.
First, many of the choices are classic practices and techniques from various meditation teachers.

Second, many of these stories were told by people who had been meditating for less than a couple of years.

Third, this article could have been twice as long, because almost everyone responded to the question.

Over time, when people learn to pause and realize they have a choice, it really makes a difference! 

Choice, control, and slowing down

Between low energy from the aortic dissection and surgery and writer's block, I haven't written here for a while and a few people have emailed to see if I'm OK. I realize that when someone asks me if I'm OK or how I'm doing, one word just doesn't begin to answer it. In one respect I'm doing OK given the dramatic changes in my life that are the new normal: monitoring my salt intake (reading all the labels), taking my blood pressure and medications every day, and making sure to keep my heart rate under 100.

I realize that part of my chronic tiredness is the normal "I'm ready for winter to be over" and "I'm ready for covid to be over." I also realize that part of my tiredness is tinged with some depression at having to let go of so much. There's also some fear about going back into the world, e.g., to the local Co-op, to the local coffee shop. Last Saturday we were invited to a small outdoor gathering for a friend's birthday. The chairs were several feet apart and we were masked. It was such a joyful feeling seeing people face to face.  The next day I felt a bit down, and I realized that I wanted more. I'm guessing this is what many others are feeling too.  

Slowing down
While there is fatigue and a bit of depression, I am also finding it fascinating to actually be moving much more slowly through the world. This may sound weird to some, but for the first time in my life, I am flossing my teeth slowly. I can feel the floss as it moves up and down on both sides of the tooth. I am paying attention. When going fast, I'm already thinking of what's next. I am also catching myself more often typing as fast as I can, fingers flying across the keys, and I can feel the tightness in my shoulders and the back of my neck! I can also feel a more relaxed body when I type more slowly. By walking so slowly on the Ashuelot River I have seen things that I have never noticed in the 30 years I have walked on that path before.

I have written before (12/31/19) about our three intelligences: body, mind, and heart.  I can tangibly feel the difference in my body when I go slower and when I am speedy, and I feel good that these three systems are more aligned and integrated. Yesterday I totally blew it while working on our family's taxes. I recognized it while it was happening, but my desire to finish before dinner was much greater than my desire to go slowly. When I was doing the taxes as fast as I could, I was aware of my irritability when I couldn't find the information that I needed. Especially with something like an onerous task like taxes, I can now feel more tangibly the after effects for the rest of the day--slipping back into an old habit of focusing on what's not working/what's not right--with the world, the country, my state, my family. And by taking a few minutes to just breathe, I can often feel that negative energy dissipate, at least somewhat.

Choice and control
The last blog entry was on choice and this is one of the great benefits of slowing down. When things happen that I don’t like, I can feel my reactivity in my body, my mind, and my heart and then be more aware of the choices I have in how I respond.  My natural tendency is to try to control what I don't like--in myself, in others, and in the world. From having lived in Nepal, I have seen that there are other ways of being with what one doesn't like than simply trying to change it or "fix it." This has been a major gift of mindfulness. For example, some people are talking loudly at 10 pm at night on the street or a neighbor, bordering on OCD, is once again mowing the lawn and trimming the bushes, or a colleague has a voice that grates on me. I, and most Americans, could go on and on about pet peeves. When I visited my dad, the number of times I heard "you know what really galls me is. . ." was in the double digits every day.

I've found the thoughts of two meditation teachers to be very helpful in this quest to be with what I don’t like in ways that keep my heart open, my body less tense, and my mind clearer.

From Winnie Nazarko: "One thing we’re developing clarity about. . .is what we have control and influence over and what we don’t. How do we figure that out? By again and again and again and again, on levels gross and subtle, attempting to exercise control over what’s arising in the body-mind…and usually failing. Eventually the mind starts to realize, “Wait. This is actually suffering when the mind goes like that. Can I let go of that? Can I sit back and be more receptive and allowing?” In order to do that, the mind has to give up trying to implement its ideas of how things should be. But it’s not easy." 

From Pema Chodron: “The circle of compassion widens at its own speed and widens spontaneously. All we can really control is that we choose to show up, we choose to practice, we choose to do the best we know how to do, we practice with the skill that we possess right now. We cannot control the results. We suffer so much less when we realize and accept that simple truth." 

And so I, and we, continue to practice and live the best we can, sometimes happy with the changes we have seen in ourselves and sometimes frustrated. And we continue to practice!